20th Birthday :D

I embraced my last day as a teenager thinking about my upcoming 20th birthday, which is today. thoughts wandered off in my mind. About how birthday is so overrated, how giving a surprise cake slowly becomes an inevitable moral duty & shifts the whole meaning of 'surprise' into 'oh wow im surprised.. yeahh.. not really'. i have a buried skepticism when it comes to birthdays. Surely it is great to commemorate the day our mother pushed us out through her birth canal (or a C-section incision, for some) but still, to me birthday is just another day that we all have. just another day.

Second thought.

Today i was awaken by some crazyy BBM attack wishing me a happy & blasted birthday and recent updates full of my idiotic face during high-school. I swear i almost cried river of tears that morning. Not exactly the hip i expected to have!

Then some friends came over and drag me to menjangan island. Apart from the long-exhausting-3hours drive, the island is a MAJOR MAJOR heaven on earth. We went snorkeling, and GOD the coral reefs & the fishes we encountered were magnificent! UGH! naff said. the sentence stands for itself!

The day could NOT get any better. during our way back to bali, we were stunned by the magical maaagiicall sudden appearance of a whale (or 2 whales or 3 i wasnt sure) bursting watersplash through their hole on their back (not sure what its called). I even saw one of them actually hop out of the water as if it was trying to wish me a happy birthday. LOL! awed & amazed.

I went back home after another long drive JUST to find yet another not-so-surprising-but-im-flattered surprise from some of my beloved besties. At some point i knew that they were coming and i kinda had prepared my unsurprised face, but when they were actually in front of me, i was speechless. My whole unsurprised face went straight out of the window. I could only look nothing but flattered and tear-eyed.

And then i had a lovely dinner with my whole family ++ some relatives.

i guess Birthday is still going to be just another day in your life, without the presence of friends and family. Because it turns out, with your friends & family around you, birthday is actually one of the most special day you could ever get in your life!

thank you for everyone! you guys made my day :)

NB : i just checked my head, and its still one and attached & shows no sign of growing another branch out of its root. when they say 20 is a two-headed phase in your life, THEY LIE!

The Lost Hero - Rick Riordan

i was way past the percy jacksons' euphoria when one of my friend, ririn, told me about rick's latest kick, the lost hero. I was like, girl you serious. Turned out, she was. LOADS of thanks to you Ririn for generously borrowing me the book :3

Anyway, the first few chapters of the book struck me like a dejaVu. The casts are so much like rick's first series 'The Camp Half-Blood". 3 People on a dangerous quest to save the world. Percy Jackson the son of Poseidon, the star of the story, charming, powerful and attractive. Annabeth the daughter of Athena, brave and 'unlike any other girl her age'. Grover the satyr, funny, silly, always do unexpected things. Well, The Lost Hero offers something quite similar to its descendant. Jason the son of Zeus (little improvement), amnesiac, another star of the story, another charming, another powerful and attractive cast. Piper the daughter of Aphrodite, another Brave and 'unlike any other girl her age' cast, but this time rick adds 'Naturally Beautiful' into her feature. And last, Leo the son of Hephaestus. I KNOW he's not a satyr, but Leo and Grover share so MUCH things in common. They both are funny, silly, and always ALWAYS do unexpected things. But obviously Leo can do a lot more than just blowing a magical satyr-flute.

Rick Riordan doesn't believe in a Happy Ending. At least that's what i could judge after reading the Lost Hero. I seriously thought that 'the camp half-blood' was the ultimate END of the Olympus conflicts and war prophecies. I mean, after Percy Jackson's heroic act in bringing and end to the rise of the Titan's Army, everyone must've thought that THAT's IT. That was the end of the EVIL attempts to take over Olympus and rule the goddamn world. Apparently that was SO NOT IT.

The Lost Hero reveals that actually the other great prophecies does not need a millenia to be true. It starts right in this very BOOK. This book tells you about the journey of Jason, Piper and Leo to save the world from the rise of the KING of Giants, Porphyrion, by saving the caged queen of the Goddess, Hera. During their way, they encountered Monsters and Evil Gods and brilliantly overcome them one by one. At the end of the book, you will be surprised to know that actually there is OTHER camp for demigods, just like camp Half-Blood (which was particularly for the Greek Demigods), but takes the Roman side of the gods. INTERESTING! For those of you who is LONGING for percy jackson's to appear once a while in this book, you will be disappointed. The so called percy NEVER appeared, not even once, because he is Apparently missing nowhere to be found.

To be honest, despite all the similarity to its previous series, i actually LOVE the book! The stories will make you hold-your breath but also manage to make you smile with the slapstick jokes at the same time. With most of my time reading a medical-related reference, this book is the PERFECT sunshine after the rain. Totally recommended for those who secretly fetishes the "camp half-blood" series. I might not good with stars, but TWO THUMBS up for The Lost Hero!!

P.S. The Son of Neptune (the sequel) will be out fall 2011 and i just cannot wait to land my hand on it!

EPID

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Epid is notorious for being one of the hard-to-pass blocks in udayana medical faculty. Epid has a quite bad history among the students because many of them failed. And when you failed epid, YOU FAILED BIG, because the epidemiology-curse starts there. I've also heard rumors saying that the remedial exam tends to be even harder than the real exam, the reason why once you failed you stay failed.

BUT THANK GOD I PASSED!

A STAGGERING 84.

HARD-WORK PAYS OFF.

one of the happiest moment of my life.

Lina Geboy

She is the very definition of the wellknown quote "DANGDUT NEVER DIES".

the only apparent problem is that,

SHE IS INSANE

disagree?

well WATCH and LEARN. this is JUST for fun purposes only. any MORAL degradation is strictly PERSONAL and i am not there to be responsible.

but LINA is!

AIN'T SHE AWWSUM??

and INSANE??

well to be frankly honest, i LAUGHED so HARD when i saw this video for the first time. All i had in mind was that HOW COULD she ever CAME UP with such an EROTIC move with a little sex-whine twist (you know the aahh ahh ahh?). The climax part was when she started to RAPE the soundfrigginsystem and the kendang mimic-ing a PERFECT HARDCORE SEX MOVE. Oh, HILAR!

just don't get too attached, guys.

im serious.

MAY MAY MAY

Medical school sucks like a toddler. I have been studying / working sho very hard this past 8 months i almost die of exhaustion. From the oh-so-many-to-memorize Growth and Development lectures to the Terror of OSCE remedial to the out-of-control Epidemiology Exam (in which i still have nightmares about) i am through them all!!

AND I DESERVE A LITTLE BREAKY BREAK

Thank the lord, i kinda had like a week of Galungan and Kuningan holiday (well it wasn't exactly a 'holiday', but u get my point) and Thank the lord times two, my girls from jakarta were comin down to BALI. Them girls i been missing forreeevveerrr. And so my weekend is super complete.

As a starter, we decided to have a dinner in the same exact place we had our farewell 10 months ago, Ultimo italianoo cucinoo delicioso. Honey, it is an uber fab place to have dinner. 1 little tip, you better reserve those seats in advance (especially if u bring alot of people, in my case, 10) so u won't have to wait anxiously at the bar like a bunch of golddigging bitches waiting to be poked by some 60ish something2 foreigners. With a little bit of luck (thanks to the PR) we eventually got a table!

Maria, Me and DT

Deshi, Sam and Eliz

DT, Saknia, Deshi, Sam - my highskoolmatesss

Look at these barbaric little monsterss

HA!

It was a lovely lovely dinner. We talked a LOT but most importantly we LAUGHED even MOAR. I just love to laugh along with them like you can go on FOREVER.

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My holiday continued to Ubud. We were having our weekend staying over at The i forget its name Villa! Me, fitri, galih and Dyat have actually planned this since eons ago. It is just too bad My other girls cannot come because they got family business on their own :(

ANYWAY

We stayed at this villa (wanakerta, i think) it was a very very calm and serene place, like a balinese buildings in the 30s that are made of traditionally carved woods. It is actually a perfect place if you want to spend your weekend quietly AND peacefully away from the buzzing society. Which is kinda WHY the place was not a match for us because we wanted our weekend to be LOUD AND CRAZY, as opposed to quiet and peaceful.

since the pool in the wanakerta villa was seveeereelllyy mossed and damaged and running out of medicine (simply put : U CANT SWIM IN IT) we decided to take a visit to Andika's village and generously plead to him to let us swim in his pool. FOR FREEEEEEE.

Oh i forgot to tell you, another pack was coming with us (kocong, dika and iwan)

Even though the water felt like 0 degrees (like i could totally freeze) but we had HEAPS OF FUN!!!

Wanakerta Villllaaa

Deserted Pool

left - Fitri, dyat me, DT

wat u bitches doin??

MAJOR MAJOR thanks to ANDIKA :)

no, he's not the son of poseidon

hpmfh

kocong, dyat and me

galih, dika and andika

It was MAJOR. Ha, thank god i didn't contract any illness after that torturous swim in a subzero temperature. Oh and many many many thanks to Galih (owner of wanakerta) and Andika (owner of the pool) forr the FAB free weekend :) (next time lagi lo!!!)

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ROCKBAR. the place everyone is fussing about. I had no idea why did we go there first hand, i guess it was like a MUST like we MUST go there no matter what. yeh rite.

So me, maria, eliz, DT, kocong and galih went there.

I'm telling you the scene was TO-DIE-FOR soo beautifull i gagged and i died and went to heaven. SAY NO MORE. It's a MUST-VISIT place.

1 little suggestion, you might want to bring a little more money on that wallet, i'm telling you, the prices are going to stop your heartbeat. And try to avoid the comfy-looking sofa(no matter HOW FAB it looks), unless you wish to spend MOAR than 800k purchase of DRINKS.

heaven on earth

me, DT and kocong

RIGHT by the cliff overlooking the SEA. SO DAYUM PRETTEEEHHH

he's AWED. "omg it's so beautiful"

Taken from the gondola - me, maria, eliz

eliz, maria and WHO DAT BITCH??

me, maria, dt, ajun, galih - on the best table

yeee??

Don't get charmed by the look of em. They did look good, but some of them tasted like Shhh....t

These are the top2 best taste - NON ALCOHOLIC (don't wana get drunk, the cliff scared us)

Sitback and relax - Having no idea that the bill would come out so......

bitches

I'm NOT going to talk about how much money we spent here (makes me want to barf allover elize's alexander wang's purse). Regardless of the money we spent, we had L.O.A.d.S of FUN. L.O.A.D.S of YEE YEE??????????

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66 BEACHHHHH. our PERSONAL HEAVEN (strictly me, maria, eliz and DT). i Remember summer 2008 and 2009 we SPENT EVERY SINGLE DAY lurkin around getting tanned and bought magazines. OMG i was SO DARK at that time my mom couldn't recognize me.

I made friends with the seat-lender on 66 beach so we could get 2 SEATS for a cheapy cheapy price. I also made friends with the magazines seller so that i could buy the likes of VOGUE or ELLE or GQ or TEENVOGUE in an even moar cheapy cheapy price. SOMETIMES they even granted us FREE MAGAZINES.

HEAVEN.

So we decided to spend a day on this little peace of heaven, and i kinda had to skip class (SORRY FATHER MOTHER I HAVE SINNED). but i would def not miss a fantastic yee yee over the beach.

I Mean of course i didn't go there to get tanned (having born a dark bitch, getting myself tanned doesnt sound like a very good idea) but we went there just to, you know, TALK and LAUGH and LAUGH and LAUGH and BOOGIE and LAUGH LAUGH swim AND LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH.

and of course 3 issues of VOGUE for less than 100k was SUCH A GREAT DEAL.

eliz

ripping off the plastic - maria and me AND may issue of vogue

DT, me and bitch wat ya doin?

NGAKAK. that mommy was tryin to sell DT some of her sarongs

me and eliz

maria dt and eliz

ngakak2

YE???????

it looks like an ad

hm

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Let me tell you something. Even though my girls are already leaving me (all taking short semester) by the time this post is published, our summer DOES not stop here. This one week is just a STARTER, we are so going to be reunited AGAIN next july.

and in the meantime, i can totally still hangout wit my other friends. But i'm still going to miss them :(

until next july.....

*big wet smooches*

birthday? whats that?

okay so my birthday is on the 13th. which was yesterday. yay congratz! i'm 19 now haha yada yada partyyyy.

actually. no.

i mean, my life as a teenager is coming to an end (this is practically my LAST age that has the phrase 'teen' entangled on it. nineTEEN?) and life as a tynager is about to begin (twenTY. get the point?) so whats there to CELEBRATE?

i've been thinking about it, and my thoughts said that my 19th birthday was so OVERRATED. Or at least i felt like it was. Of course, as a child, the word "birthday" mattered like NOTHING else to me back then, you know, balloons cakes and kids and candles and presents bla bla yada yada, but now it's a whole lot different matter. Because now, the word "birthday" does not make that much SENSE like it was a few years ago.... weird huh?

Birthday makes you realize that you are aging, that you have a sort of biological clock which is tick-tocking its way out until it stops...

BIRTHDAY MAKES YOU FEEL OLD, WRINKLY, AND FAT. BUT MOSTLY OLD.

having people came and cheered "Happy BIRTHDAY omg, you're 19 now. hahaha" "Haii. Oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY, your 19 or what now? hahaha" like OKAY I GET IT I'M 19 IM OLD OKAY I DONT NEED YOU GUYS TO REMIND ME EVERY GODDAMN SECOND! like, ENOUGH okay?

it's weird, right? those people were never intended to offense me by any means. then why am i so annoyed by them?

But don't get me wrong. i 100% APPRECIATE you guys for wishing me a Happy Birthday and stuffs, i do, they do make me HAPPY... But then, i also UNDERSTAND that sometimes wishing someone a happy birthday is not just an emotional outburst, but also a DUTY to run. Like if you don't wish him a happy birthday, he will remember you and when your birthday comes he won't say a word to you. Stuff like that DOES exist you know. at least they do in my mind.

RECEIVING a 'Happy Birthday' is obviously another different set of WERQ. I have quite a lot of 'Happy Birthday's stamped on my facebook wall and i have replied EVERY SINGLE one of them, unconditionally. i mean that's the rule right? They give, you recieve and BE grateful. What's so difficult about being grateful. We don't actually have to mean it to the level of subconsciousness. Just showing it is enafffff.

Still wanna have birthday? okay let me dispel another thing. I realize that you tend to have MORE friends on your birthday than you actually are on a daily regular basis. I looked at my facebook wall and WOW my wall was suffocated by peoples' wishes on my upcoming year. I know some of them just as regular friends. Some are long-gone friends. Some are complete strangers. Only a few, a little tiny part of them are the people that i know by heart. So if you're still getting away on your birthday thinking that "oh my godd. look at ALL MY FRIENDS they really care about me. omg i love them so much", THINK AGAIN (bold and italic), cause when all the euphoria is over,almost none will stand there to clean the ashes ALONG with you. NONE!!!

Ha. this whole birthday madness makes me look like an emotionless birthday tyrant no? But hey. This is just another thoughts and speculations that my mind formulate randomly with no means to harm others! I am 19 and i think i can declare myself as "mature enough" to formulate and speak up my own thoughts FREELY with no pressure whatsoever. I was born in the 20th century and now im living in the 21st century you see, i MADE it through a CENTURY so please grant me the liberation and autonomy already! But then again, there is nothing that can definitely measure "maturity" up until now. Not even age. There's no magnitude to "maturity" as it is a very subjective matter. Of course you're all aware of that.

so what was my POINT again?

My point is..

Special thankss to the PEOPLE who have wished me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY cause yesterday kinda was a 'HAPPY' BIRTHDAY! Special thanks to GALIH, DYAT and DTANG (i believe Andika came merely by force, but THANKS anyway) WHO HAVE AWAKEN ME IN THE MIDDLE OF A DOG HOWLING MIDNIGHT JUST TO MAKE ME BLOW 8 STUPID CANDLES ON A CRAZILY DELICIOUS CAKE. I LOVE IT AND I LOVE YOU GUYSSS. AND ALSO TO MARIA AND ELIZABETH FOR THE MIDNIGHT YEE YEE CALL. OMG I MISS DOING STUFFS LIKE THAT WITCHALL. I HOPE IM GOING TO JKT SOON TO CATCH UP WIT YOUR NOW FAB AND JETSET LIFE.

but then,i never tried to make any point, i guess :p

okay maybe i have one.

that smoking is THE swagger and THE lung cancer. weighing between those two, THE lung cancer def win. so it is MUCH MUCH MUCH better to have a stupid overrated birthday than to have cigs on those pretty lips.

baboosh

Not-so-Objective Overly-Structured Clinical Examination

o, s, c, and e, are 4 letters that should NOT be allowed to go next to each other, like, its ILLEGAL!

It's amazing how these 4 letters can put me in SUCH headache and they are a PERFECT instant mood-ruiner of the day.

why?

CAUSE I FAILED OSCE.

failing osce feels like going to a haloween party perfectly disguised as harry potter or strawberry shortcake but still got people questioning "okay, what are YOU again?" "Im strawberry shortcake!" "oh.. what?"

failing osce feels like 2012.

how do u suppose to pass something like pathology and histology, anyway?

they are certainly something impassable like it is a federal crime to be able to pass such horrors. but for Oprah's sake i would rather be an international felony than to start memorizing the whole histology and pathology thing over again. like NO.

question : "what the hale do these 3 pictures look like to ya?"

a. stacks of dirty boogers

b. Korean noodles

c. strawberry seeds

d. paintings from the 16th century

e. puzzles

f. i can't see anything i'm blind

g. please stop im going crazy

correct answer will get a kiss-on-a-cheek and an oreo cookie from me!

oh and wish me luck on the 4th!

have i been living in a cave? amateur thoughts on doctor-blogger phenomena.

i am certainly HAVE been living in a cave, somewhere in the middle of the amazon forest where human and animals live together in perfect harmony.

or not.

The first time i heard of that word, doctor-blogger, seems vaguely unfamiliar. Like, why would you label a doctor as a blogger or vice versa because it is truly an obvious opposite. You obtain the label "doctor" through YEARS AND YEARS of hardworks and drama and tears and blood.. while in just a FEW clicks u can already declare yourself as a blogger. Why do these 2 labels can even be next to each other in a phrase, is still a mystery to me..

but im hardly one to judge..

cause to my surprise, doctor-bloggers are already making their own little community!

one of the first doctor-bloggers that i found was Dr. Deddy Andaka. He has been blogging since the year of 2001...YES 2001! I was prolly still a stupid 4th grade elementary pupil that knew nothing but Sunday-cartoon and coco crunch cereal, but this yet-to-be-doctor man had started his own little path, into cyber existence.

If you're curious about what his blog is all about, u can go straight to his blog by clickin on THIS.

There are many MORE doctor-bloggers that exist in the cyber world like Dr.Sutarsa, who specializes in literature and youth with their problems. Or try Dr.Eka Kusmawan, there are many useful articles about surgery in his blog, no surprise, he is a surgeon himself.

ANYWAY DO U GET MY POINT?

I have studied medical quite LONG enough (i say 6 months as a "quite LONG enough") to know how blogs and other non-journal-related-sites are NOT RELIABLE ENOUGH to be a reliable source that can help us in our study as a medical student! And of course, up until the moment i write this article, the likes of HighWire or BMJ are still the sites of our choice as the trustful information source. but OH HELL CURSE the bureaucracy of those sites. WHY DO we HAVE TO PAY SOME EXTRA $$$$ TO GET A DECENT JOURNALS, only god knows!

1 question arises in my mind "Do doctors write their blog based on evidences or just a mere accumulation of their own opinions ?"

And that question will ignite another question "Do they do it just for fun or is there any other hidden purposes?"

and the $64million question is "can we, medical students, USE some of the contents in your blog for our own references that is relevant in our study?"

oh please answer that!

part of me would like to trust some of the blogs because what i have in mind is that "well they are doctors, i suppose they write everything based on evidences rite?" Well thats an obvious SELFISH part of me of course. The other part of me would just stick to journal sites.

The reason i would rather choose doctors blog than other journal sites is that a blog is just more accessible than journal sites, in which some of them demands a quite sum of money for us to be able to take a peek at their confusing journals. Well MAYBE, just MAYBE our beloved doctors would like to take their blog to the next level and be more reliable...

just MAYBE, ok? no pressure doc!

but then again, who am i to judge? who am i to control someone's blog?

DIDN'T I STATED CLEARLY ENOUGH IN THE TITLE THAT THIS IS JUST AN AMATEUR THOUGHTS THAT I FORMULATE?

so, please, no offense!

but for those doctors who have started and still survived, I VALUE YOU DOCS SO MUCH. KEEP MOTIVATING ME!

OUCH!

i KNOW. i have been utterly busy this whole 6 months. That is why i am not going to apologize to anyone regarding my long long absence. anyway what do u expect me to be other than busy, eh? i was in my first term of medical, i was still getting accustomed to the hectic schedules of a med students and it was pretty hard for me to shift my old-high-school-oh-tomorrow's-exam-lets-study-overnight habit into a okay-it's-2-weeks-before-exam-now-lets-read-the-references one. but then no one ever said that changing a habit is as easy as flipping your goddamn palm. NO ONE!

so habit DOES change afterall.

anyway.

i just received my GPA result for this term. lala. at first i was like, er okay whatever it will be will be, i did my best, bla bla bla and so the self reassurance goes on and on. But when the 'transkrip nilai' was actually in My own hand, like i'm actually holding it, and looking at the marks, i went like DAMN I COULD'VE DONE BETTER DAMN DAMN. i could not control myself. I saw a BIG FAT STUPID 'C' just lay there innocently. I wish i could erase a printed paper. But i couldn't. Then i tried to find the 'brightside' out of the thing. well my GPA's a 3pointers, 3,78 to be exact. And it was okay i guess, u know, it is quite high and satisfying to me already.

IM NOT JOKING okay? u can see it right here,

and then a fact struck me. So the 'C' thing was an OSCE exam in which i was actually failing. So if i get a remed and the 'C' turns into an 'A' then my GPA will be..... a 4?

oh god no.

and the bad news is i KNOW that my remed is going to be an 'A' cause it's already an 'A' even when i failed.

I really don't know if i'm supposed to be happy or sad. But the of course i'm going to be HAPPY like hell yeah i got a 4 tats HUGE whoa wohoo party. but that just it.

to me getting a 4 is a BIG RESPONSIBILITY. It's like having 2 big heavy STONES tied on my shoulder, carrying them everywhere i go. It is quite a BURDEN for me. People will think "man this kid got a 4 he must be a darn genius" HELLO IM NOT GENIUS. u guys can take out my brain and put it next to Einstein's or Rizky's and the difference will be OBVIOUS. Simply put, it means that i CANNOT let myself stray away next term. Like i have to focus and do my real best so that i can maintain my GPA a forever-4, cause if i don't..... im going to jump off a cliff covered in agony and sorrow.

well, goodluck for me, cause i REALLY REALLY need it.

HELP!!! NEED HELP? SP 7 and 8 SHORTCUT

ok. So i totally know how you guys have been STRUGGLING to finish ALL the silly STUDENT PROJECTS that have been constantly on our shoulder.

So i have been trying to finish all of the student projects as early as possible because i just want to get away from them as soon as possible. I have a life to live. And student project is NAD a life. it is a TORTURE

so i am here, cinderella of medical communication, trying to HELPS all of your troubleeee.

especially in doing your SP 7 and 8.

oh wells. i DO know that you guys are SO lazy to make presentations, like you guys all have questions in mind like what is this for? why is it SO important?

Stop the questioning RIGHT away because guess what guys?

NOW you DO NOT need to enqueue in front of the class PC JUST to copy a stupid slide from our lecture. because now we can TOTALLY download (yes DOWNLOAD) slides just in a

FEW CLICKS

So i have miraculously FOUND this website called slideworld, a website of powerpoint and PDF presentations. you can basically find EVERYKINDS of presentation on this website.

it is SIMPLE.

of i will give you the amateur tutorial.

Ok first get to SLIDEWORLD

Then fill out all the sign in forms. ALL of them.

Once u sign in, Search for the desired presentation by typing on the search box.

wells. me myself i pick up 'DIABETES MELLITUS' as the presentation theme.

here's an example of a downloaded PDF presentation.

KAPLAN?? sounds pretty familiar

My first slide of SP 7

ok so goodluck,

oh and,

YOU'RE WELCOME!